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2002.02.14: Trying to find a voice for this blog.

This blog is still trying to find its voice. I just don't know what kind of material I want to post on here. I wanted to post significant life stuff here, but the problem is that I live a fairly boring life. Significant stuff only comes along once in a while. If it came all the time, it wouldn't be significant.

Posting about the minutia in my life feels pointless. And it is really boring to read, mostly because I live a boring life, but also because I'm not quite witty enough or observant enough to make it worth reading.

I had also planned on posting original essays here, but I don't so much have the time to write those on a regualr basis, and I'm currently developing a different site where I'll need that material, so I shouldn't use it here.

So here are some of my options and what I think about them.

1. I can write about the deep dark secrets of my soul. This should make for some interesting reading as long as I refrain from becoming too self indulgent.
   
   The downside: Do I really want to do that? If I knew that I would never meet any of my readers, then I probably would (wierd, isn't that? Why should I feel more comfortable telling stangers my innermost thoughts than telling those same thoughts to the people who know and love me?) The other danger attendant to that is that I might quickly run out of things to say. I'd like to think that I am a deep resevoir of insight, but the reality is more likely that I am a shallow and repetitive puddle of inanity.



2. I could write about school. A friend of mine suggested I retitle my blog the "secret seminary" and write about all the going-ons at school and how I am constantly disagreing with the established orthadoxy and how I am seemingly always just one step away from getting kicked out of school for my views.
   
   The downside: Again, I wouldn't want certain people to read that. Especially the people at my school (If I really am only one step away from getting kicked out, this could be the step that puts me over the edge). Also, writing about school tends to be boring to everyone who isn't in your classes. Plus, I'm not really all that much of a rebel. I don't get as much resistance as I like to think I do. So I might again run out of things to post rather quickly.



3. I can keep doing what I'm doing
   
   The downside: What I'm doing right now doesn't seem to be holding people's interest much either. More of the same probably isn't going to help.

Hmmmmm...not entirely liking my options. If only I hadn't told my friends and family about this site. Then I'd feel like I could post more freely and not worry about stuff that I post coming back to bite me. But based on my activity logs, it doesn't look like my friends and family have been visiting my site much. So who knows. Hmmmmmm.

To all of my readers who I haven't alienated yet (the proverbial trio of readers. Which in my case my actually be only three people at this point): sorry for the inane post, but do you have any suggestions for me?

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