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2003.08.22: Recovering

I had surgery yesterday (Friday). I am recovering as best as can be expected. Too early to tell if the surgery achieved what it was supposed to, but there were no complications and I am otherwise fine.

I would be in tremendous pain except for the miracles of modern pharmacology. Instead, I am merely in moderate pain. I can live with that.

What freaks me out more than the pain is how little I remember. I was given Versed right before the operation. I remember practically nothing about what happened during the operation and even much of what happened when I got home. Very very freaky. The whole day felt like a dream. I would switch topics in conversation according to dream logic, and them be puzzled when they didn't understand me. And when I tried to concentrate, all of my thoughts would slip away just like they do in dreamland. Even now, I still can't tell if some of the things that I "remember" from that day actually happened, or if I just dreamed them. It was very disturbing and unnerving. I'm not sure that I ever want to visit Versed-land ever again.

Executive Summary: In pain, but doing OK. Kinda Freaked Out.

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